Blame it on genetics, lifestyle, or just label me as weak or "mentally ill", but I've always had a tendency leaning HARD towards Depression and Anxiety. It probably became a "thing" around my Junior year in high school when my health problems started, and realllly hit hard after my first daughter (bless her sweet soul and those d a m n hormones).
I don't remember her first six months of her little life. I don't really remember much, except LOTS of Grey's Anatomy and feeling too stressed to leave our little apartment with her because I was worried about the air quality. It was a bad combo of feeling anxious and overwhelmed, and depressed and lethargic. Bad combo, my friends.
Through the next few years I was led on an amazing healing journey that has brought me to where I am today.
Unbelievably Happy. On Zoloft. And 1000% on board with every woo-woo practice I can get my hands on. So how did I come to this unseemingly perfect balance, you ask? Let me tell ya....
While pregnant with my second ladylove, I was so prepped for the Postpartum Depression that I was sure would strike again. But my lovely little brain did a little flip on me and after she was born; straight up ANXIETY hit, and oh man, it hit hard. And it was a whole new beast.
I took a deep dive into learning meditation techniques and yoga instruction because so help me, I had felt what anti-anxiety and anti-depressants did to people's liver (via foot zones) and I WAS NOT going on anything of the sort!
The anxiety would be alleviated from time to time but I truly started to see how it was driving me and all my actions. I finally was able to come to terms that maybe, just maybe, a teensy dose of that Western Medicine would help. My awesome CNM was able to help me with the dosing phase where I wanted to rip my hair out because it "wasn't working" and now I can happily say my baby dose of Zoloft is my BFF.
My Zoloft Helps Me Function; My Woo-Woo Helps Me LIVE.
Now, would I rather that I was on some regimen that was 100% all-naturalll? Heck yeah. But at this point in my life, this balance is perfecto for me. My medication has taken off "the edge" so to speak, so I can see clearly enough and be able to help myself in all the ways I truly want to.
Regular Yoga, Meditating, Energy Healing, Crystals, Herbs, Essential Oils, Mindfulness Practices, and Supplements help to truly give me the day to day JOY I've been seeking for years now.
Every person and situation is different, and I am by no means a healthcare professional, but I really just felt the nudge to post this post. I guess to tell all you mamas and ladies that you're not alone in this. And to shed some light on the stigma that you're not "lazy" or "weak" if you are on any type of meds.
If you're in the throes of Anxiety, Depression, or some other mental h e l l hole. Know you're not alone. You've got this. And all the answers to how you can make it through, are within you. You WILL find your perfect balance. Mentally, Emotionally, Physically, and Spiritually.
Because YOU, my love, are pure, perfect Light. Just take a minute to listen to your Inner She, and you'll know where you need to go, what you need to take, or who you need to talk to.
With Love and Light, Mal
(PS: I'd LOVE if you would share this on Social Media or send to any loved ones that you feel could benefit.)
Mally Griffin. Founder of 'The Revival Kit'. Bringing women tools to not just Survive their lives, but Revive them.